I have been having a lot of disturbing emotions lately about everything that has been going on in the world lately. My heart feels heavy and I feel the pain from all sides of the spectrum. I have been having vivid premonitions and we as a people need to take a step back and look at what we are doing to one another. We are murdering each other left and right and for what?Vengeance? What does that even mean? Will it free your souls at the end of each night to cause pain to someone else who wasn’t part of the problem? Does it make you feel righteous inside and somewhat dignified?
We all need to take a step back and look at the ground. I see blood and bodies and our loved who can no longer make a sound. For a moment I saw a movie set with flashing lights and moving cameras and then I closed my eyes and realized my mind was deceived. It wasn’t a movie, it was my reality. I close my eyes at night and I can hear the screams of people in Dallas running from the scene as the shooter lays another round to one of the guys in blue; then he went down. My heart beat for a moment and gravitated toward my throat. The lump that formed held the tears in check.
My body shook and it was over, but not really. The very next day it happened again. In another state, another city, another country. The body count rose tremendously as more families mourned their sons, daughters and neighbors. When will we realize that violences doesn’t cancel itself out with more bloodshed? I’ve seen whole cities come together in the streets with their candles in hand with heads bowing. We need to take a step back and come together as a single unit instead of part of a whole picture. Light skin doesn’t make us any less capable of violence than dark skin. When we realize that sin comes in all colors, shapes, and sizes we will begin to see one another equally. You are no better than me.
Nicole Johnson 
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