Nicole Johnson

I can see myself in a spiral for control—
I’ve lost it all.
The virtue that is I is gone and I don’t know why.
Playing the role of a woman who has it all
I can’t help but cry because it’s a beautiful lie.
It’s in the eyes,
My soul on a display for an Oscar-winning award for the “best leading woman in a drama”
Looking up to the sky— there are no answers when the sun won’t shine.
I’ve got to know right now because the only truth is in the eyes.
One minute I’m fine and the next I’ve fallen to my knees, curled into a ball.
I must be blind—there’s more lies than truths and the anger won’t subside.
Look me in the eye and tell me everything will be alright.