Nicole Johnson

I can’t do this any longer
—My heart beats outside my chest
Exposing its self for the world to see.
My lungs are collapsing with every forced breath and brings me to my knees.
This could be it—
This could be the end of me.
Gazing upon the starry sky
I’ve found you,
My bright northern star.
I’ve been told to follow you if I ever feel lost
And I need you now more than ever before.
Your guidance will walk me through the night and back into your waiting arms.
I find myself still staring at you like some kind of stranger waiting for the familiar signal that you remember.
My swiftly beating heart pumps its fluids through me as I seek the sign that everything will be alright.
The numbness takes control as I gaze upon my frail body from a far
Feet cemented to the ground as the fight inside me brews, seeping down to my very being with ember that no longer only ignite
The gentle extinguishing wind that is you.
Watching as I flutter into nothingness
I cease to exist.